If you're so clever...  Why are you on your own tonight?

If you're so very entertaining... Then why are you on our own tonight?

If you're so very good-looking... Then why do you sleep alone tonight?

Item 1.)
What is this constant need people have for attention? Honestly... I do not understand it. I know that everyone likes to be recognized, myself included. However, this insatiable need for attention - from anyone and everyone - that I seem to find in the majority of people in my age group truly confuses me. The idea of people talking about me makes me vastly uncomfortable. Yes, I want recognition. We all do. But I want to be recognized for doing something amazing, for creating something beautiful... Not for some ridiculous teenage scandal. I know that I will occasionally be spoken about for who I've loved, or hated, the things I've worn, and so on, but I'd like to think that when the day is done I will be remembered by the music I've made, and by my character.

Item 2.)
I heard a delicious quote today from a babbling blonde girl in my study hall as she was giggling at her project on Socrates. "True knowledge exists in knowing you know nothing." That's EXACTLY how I feel. I have no clue. About life and death, love and hate, pain and happiness. I have no control. I have to except that. You see, I'm a complete control freak. It is only when I sit back and tell myself that the control is out of my hands and there is nothing I can do, that I can begin to soothe my aching need to control EVERYTHING. It's only when I realize that I really have little to no effect on the way the world I live in changes around me, that I can fully take control of myself.

Item 3.)
I've been writing music constantly. It's like all I want to do all the time. And honestly, It's coming out pretty well. Maybe I'll post some lyrics up here... Hmm.